Sab, I'm encouraged that you want to take that step of faith :) You know, life has its quirks and disappointments but there is always hope. If we don't dedicate our lives to Him and live for Him, obeying His Word, we'll never fully experience His love and grace in our lives. Simply because we haven't asked for it. We can't expect Him to keep fishing us out of our problems and coming to the rescue if we don't even have a relationship with Him. Wouldn't it be a tad unreasonable to blame the Lord for our problems and ask Him why He doesn't deliver us from them when we don't even want to spend time with Him, read His Word and obey His commands? The Bible doesn't say "God helps those who help themselves". The Bible says, "But if we confess our sins to Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from every wrong" - 1 John 1:9. Imagine that. He will cleanse us from every wrong. How cool is that?! How awesome is that?! We no longer need to live in guilt and shame. BUT we do need to confess our sins and turn from them and try our very best never to fall back again. We all need a friend. No matter how much your friends say they will be there for you, they can't be there 24/7. They can't be there for you all the time. And it's not their fault because they are only human. How wonderful that we have a God who can be there for us any time, anywhere, any day. It's awesome, people. We've got one brave girl here who's joining me across the platform. I know there are many others who want to do the same. His hand is outstretched. Take it.

~Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now am found
Was blind but now I see!~