Hmm. Apparently, God doesn't want me to give up.

Since my last post, I've gone to take a shower and make some preps for tomorrow's sharing session in cell. Tell me, how does one prepare for a sharing session when one is so agitated? So I had to make my peace. With myself and with God. I picked up my guitar and started playing the first song that came to mind:

You make me lie down in green pastures
You make me wanting for nothing
You fill my hunger with honey
From Your sweet, sweet Word

You let me worship before You
So I will love and adore You
You are my Shepherd
You are my Jesus
You are my Lord.

There we go. The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. Or in other versions, I have everything I need. I shall not be upset about not getting my increment. Because I was made to sit at my Father's feet and worship Him and dwell in His presence. I wasn't made to be a millionaire. If so, 99.9% of us would be miserable failures. And we were not created to be failures. I was suddenly humbled. And a little ashamed of myself. I do not lack anything. I really don't.

Then as I thanked God for speaking to me, I sang the next song that came to mind:

Make my heart tender and pure
Make me strong, help me endure
In this hour, let me stand
Hold me close, with You I can

So lead me on and I will go
Lead me on and I will follow
Lead me on to where so few have gone
And I will go, I will go
Lead me on

Doesn't it speak so perfectly of how we can endure by God's grace? See, that's what we mean when we say God speaks to us. It's not always in an audible voice but He encourages us through His Word, through songs and through people. I have truly been humbled. And I'm so blessed by what I've experienced tonight. It's God at His Daddy best :)