I had a horrible day at work. I cried. Again. I hate my job. I hate my job so much. As I was telling my friends from church this evening, I hate my job more than I hate tau gay. And by golly do I hate tau gay. For the non-dialect speaking (or reading, in this case), tau gay is Hokkien (I think) for beansprouts. I abhor beansprouts. They make my hair stand and my stomach churn. But at least standing hair and a churning stomach are far better than my awful job. Tell me, which job expects you to be properly groomed and digitally-enhanced but gives you a laundry allowance of 1 jacket a week? Do they want me to smell?? (ok, enough with the s'mel' and s'melly' jokes already.. they're a bit stale) Which company's HR department would LOSE your pay increment form??? And not apologise or do anything about it! Tell me?? Which company??? Which job would make you go back to work on the FIRST day of CHINESE NEW YEAR and not allow you to claim time off?? I'll tell you. It's the SAME job that will make you go back to work on NEW YEAR'S EVE and countdown to the next year but, you guessed it, not give you time off!

As you can probably tell, I've just about had it with them. If all this compounded isn't enough, I have to put up with the people. Oh man, I don't even want to go there. I will stop short of judging people because I know how imperfect I am myself. But I'm just so fed up with my job. I've been fed up with it since April 2004. And I've hung in there for more than a year. But losing my pay increment form??? That was the last straw for me. And if I hadn't brought it up to the director after getting my payslip (which didn't reflect any change), the efficient HR department would have kept quiet. Nobody would have known that I STILL haven't got the increment. I am SO upset. SO VERY UPSET.

AND I DON'T KNOW WHO TO DIRECT THIS ANGER AT!!!

To all who are reading this, I'm sorry. It's not directed at you. I'm not angry with you. I'm just so tired. And so drained. And so disillusioned. I just want to give up.

I just want to give up.