Do you think it's silly to give a certain degree of something, knowing full well you're not going to get the same degree of that something back? As in, is it crazy to give 100% knowing that you're only going to get 35% back? Is it really just about investments and interest earned? Should it be?

Something tells me I'm being really dumb. Something tells me I'm going to wind up with a blooming deficit. I feel like I'm playing the stock market you know, taking big risks and putting everything on the line. It's like I'm putting all my money on one stock. If it goes up, yay me. If it falls, boo hoo. Am I just playing the market? Is it time to withdraw before I lose everything? Do I have anything to lose in the first place? That was a dumb question. I have lots to lose.

Why does it feel like I've got the short end of the stick? Why does it feel like I'm on a losing streak? Is it going to go up anytime soon? Is anytime one word or two? Why is the stock market associated with bulls? Because bulls are big and heavy and knock you around and trample on you and poke their horns in you?

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.