So hello one and all! I'm back again from yet another hiatus. Some things still haven't changed.

1. I'm still in the same job.
2. I still dislike my job.
3. I still have the same boss.
4. I still dislike my boss.

So you see, it's heartwarming to know some things stay the same. But who said we had to like everything on our plate?

But you know, I now believe that I'm where I am for a reason. I'm there for a single person. She's become rather dear to me and I know now that I'm placed in a position to make a difference in her life through mine. I would love to leave for a more lucrative position in a bigger company but I've come to understand better that in the light of eternity, people are more important to God than my career.

I would love to move to the Shangri-Las and the Ritz-Carltons and the Marriotts but I can't even begin to do that not because I'm inadequate but because, at this moment, I can't do so without a guilty conscience, knowing that I'm not living out the plans God has for me. And you know what? It's strangely reassuring and comforting to finally understand why God has allowed me to experience everything I have in my career so far, so that it has led me to this exact point, to meet this particular person. Of course I look at my peers and how much they've achieved in their jobs and I feel like such a disappointment. But when I see the opportunity to impact someone else's life in a meaningful way, all the disappointments just melt into the night.

And that's really what we're all here for, isn't it? We're working where we are so that we'll be able to impact the lives of those who work with us. And that's how the world is changed; that's how the world is won. One person at a time.

So maybe she won't give her life to God through me. And that's not my job either. My job is to simply make a difference in the name of Love. Because that's what you do when you've been loved first.

I still dislike my job.
I still dislike my boss.

But there is a bigger plan that requires me to have a bigger heart.